10:19:24

Val, 2021

“I am still very inspired by the teachings of Yeshua. One thing I always noticed about him is that after every major soul activation he received - and before he would be called to demonstrate and embody this higher way of being - he would go off to be alone. He would go into Hermit mode - that Virgoan gateway that opens up for the higher perfecting of our souls when it is time for us to go alone to rise.

The best example of this is right after John the Baptist identifies him, and the Holy Spirit descends upon him in the form of a dove. He was at a public gathering when all of this went down. However, the next thing we hear him doing is purposely going into the desert for forty days and forty nights to fast and get away from the external chatter.

It is said that Yeshua met Satan in this desert place, and was shown all the temptations of the world he would be rewarded if he would only denounce who ‘God’ is to him.

I actually think that the ‘Devil’ Yeshua faced were the many voices and apparitions of his own self-doubt. I think he had been shown a higher reality and power that he had been sent to embody - by way of this interaction with John. I think he accepted this ‘prophecy’ as truth because John was only confirming details about Yeshua’s own power that his soul had already made him privy to.

I think Yeshua innerstood that if he was going to embody this higher truth and timeline, he would have to collapse all the densities within that kept him where he was. In other words, if he was going to connect to and activate his Christed energies to become the ‘miracle’ worker on Earth he had been sent to be, he would have to confront every temptation and fear within, and that still locked him out of embodying this truth.

In that forty day time period, Yeshua went through what many of us have been facing in this ascension, and since Virgo season specifically. He had to come up against the limitations of his own mind, the temptation to chase the things and people that would give him temporary false security on this Earth, and he finally had to choose whether he was going to deny his true power and Devine identity…or rise into it.

This required for Yeshua to come face to face with all of his desires - the ones which were organic and true, and the ones that were a result of the fear and lust based programs of the false matrix. The biggest ‘Devil’ Yeshua faced was his own self-doubt, a self-doubt he had to eradicate when it rose to tempt him into realities and timelines that didn’t match who he was authentically, and who he came here to be on his soul mission.

By the end of those forty days and forty nights, Yeshua had been thoroughly tested by his own soul, and could therefore embody and be who he knew he was, but couldn’t previously access, before that desert experience. He needed to confront and break past every layer of doubt, and every veil that lay in his own consciousness, which told him convincing stories outside of the true story he was endeavoring to reach and live out.

Yeshua had to do combat his higher and lower selves to emerge fully integrated in both. He had to access the true power of his own soul….past the fuckery and fakery of the false matrix, and all the ways it sought to overpower his internal harmony settings.

This is the path to ‘ascended mastery,’ and Yeshua himself said we are all given access to it…and some of us would do even greater things than him, once we tuned into self and tapped out of the false matrix.

Many of you are now exiting out of a ‘forty day’ desert experience cycle that was initiated through Virgo season. You have had to do all manner of battle with external circumstances and obstacles designed to force you to collapse densities within that were keeping you out of your own ‘promised land.’

Exit this cycle now with grace, confidence, and the power to shut down anything and anyone who seeks to minimize you in pursuit of the dreams and promises your soul fought to help you obtain.

Enter into a new portal of higher timelines - made possible by your stubborn resolve to not let go of your true story for a false matrix imposter one.”

-Solarah

“I have a packed 8th house. I enjoy depth and intensity. I can’t say I’m into pain! The 8th house is concerned with exchanging energy. Ultimately, I seek transformation.

People have their preferences. There are men and women who do nothing but hook up with serial cheaters. They hit their burn via relationship triangle?  This is not my deal.

I prefer to interact one on one.  Anything more, dilutes my experience.  To understand from my perspective: imagine being in a room with one other person.  It’s you and them and it’s intense from the get go.  Think about that you.  Are you attracted? Not attracted? Can you get along with this person? What if you can’t? This gets my blood pumping, immediately.

Now imagine the same room, but there is a third person.  Now it’s complicated. Now it’s messy.

Will all three get a long at the same level in the same way? Impossible.  One might try to gain advantage by siding with another ‘one.’ One wants to get rid of one other… just on and one with these machinations which feed some, but spoil the purity I’m looking for.

I mentioned my 8th house, but my Libra also prefers one on one. Not in pain. Not into betraying or being betrayed.  I like the pure synergy that constellates in this type of scenario.

People like me find each other.  For example, I was two apartment doors down from my home when I met my husband @ 17 years old. My neighbor opened her door and invited me in for a beer. I stepped in her apartment, the young man (19 years old), stood and offered me his chair. From that moment on, there was no one else in that room.

Another example. My father and I at a card table, from the time I was seven or eight, until I was a teenager.  We played against each other (poker, spades, hearts) or with each other (pinochle). There were other people at the table but they may as well have been grayed out as I was always watching him, sensing him. He was doing the same with me, whether we sat across from each other or otherwise. Believe me, the other players tried to break this but it was impossible.

Less you think I’m describing an attraction, it wasn’t that at all. My father had a lot of power – I needed to steal it from him, if I were to ever get out of his clutches.

This is exactly what happened. It’s also the reason the card-playing story is my book. My (Virgo) editor discerned, this is how I got free of my father.  I didn’t know it or see it at the time, but he was precisely right.

I go for purity. The messy situations hold no appeal for me.  I go for the heat-seeking missile, every time. Too add to that is to take away, sort of  like putting garlic in spanakopita!

My husband once told me, together we become a bug zapper. Cool to look at, but get in the middle us – ZAP!…

Just to throw this out there, I also have problem to a lessor degree, with friends. I was fortunate enough to have my friend, Ben, explain this to me.  He said, I put people in their ‘un-comfort’ zone.  How well a person liked me depended on how comfortable they were being uncomfortable.  ‘It doesn’t bother me at all,’ he added.

Many years have passed and I think he nailed this in my case. People like us can have a friend. Yes. They just need to be strong and settled in their psyche, so to speak.  Forget everything else and look for this one quality in people.

Ben is Ben, no matter who he is talking to.  Elsa is Elsa, no matter who she is talking to. Integrity and a strong sense of self will not allow you to conform or water things down, so you are banished from their kingdom. If so, you’re one of us!

Forget ‘friends’ and look for peers.  Someone who can deal with an outlier.”

-Elsa Elsa

(Note: I love the way Elsa writes about astrology, and her writing in general. Like Elsa, I have a packed 8th house, plus more fire energy from being a triple Aries, plus the Virgo rising means I really “go for purity. The messy situations hold no appeal for me. They greatly unbalance me, in fact. I go for the heat-seeking missile, every time. Too add to that is to take away.” As a Virgo rising, I do not forgive those who take advantage of my purity (especially after claiming to cherish it) or, worse, betray the promise of theirs. Not strong, not settled, as Elsa writes.

“Dig deep where you are. Don’t slip off elsewhere. Double, triple bottom to things.”

-Robert Bresson, Notes on Cinematography